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I can’t tell if I’m bored, angry or depressed; but I know I’m just not happy right now.  I thought maybe writing in my blog would help cheer me up, so here I am writing away.   Two sentences in and I don’t feel any better yet.  Still bitchy, grouchy and tired.  Still disappointed in myself and unhappy with my general state of being.  Not that I have a reason to complain, I’m actually very blessed.  I just.. I dunno.  This isn’t working at all.  But really,  why would it?  It’s a fucking blog, dumbass!  It’s just a bunch of poorly-written stories I hope others will someday read and thing “Gee. That’s a witty fellow!”.  It’s my pathetic excuse for a social life and (external-family) human interaction. 

Surrounded by people who love me, I am very lonely.  Feel like I’m just disappointing those around me or worse.  Is it possible I don’t matter enough to disappoint people?  That’s a scary thought.  It’s one thing to be disliked, it’s entirely something worse to be insignificant to anyone but those who directly depend on you.  Bleh - I’m just being dramatic.  I’m just in a bad mood and need to do something to get out of it.

So I’m pretty damned grumpy this morning.  I could go on and on about my complaints, but I won’t.  No one cares and they are all pretty petty anyway.  But I do have to say this week has started off horrible.  Sunday morning I woke up to a terrible pain in my (very much) lower back.  Somehow between going to bed at 2AM Sunday morning and getting up at 8AM Sunday morning I bruised the hell out of my tailbone.  (Not a very flattering predicament, but a painful one all the same.)  How I did it remains a great mystery.  Did I fall down the stairs while sleepwalking?  Did I fall out of bed?  Did Amber kick me in the ass really hard?  I don’t know.. I just know I’m moving at a pace best-described at ‘crippled old man’ and wince every time I need to sit down or stand up.

Hopefully this isn’t an indication of how the rest of my week will go…

So we picked up “Juno” yesterday and I have to say it’s immediately on my Top Ten Movies of All Time (maybe even top 5). 

In today’s market of “Teen Movies”, ”Chick Flicks” and “Romantic Comedies” it’s easy for film such as this to surrender to the tempting cliche’s which ultimately kill it’s soul and insult our intelligence.  Juno rises above that in a risky, yet satisfying tale.  No, there’s no “trying to get ’some’ before Sr. Prom”.  There’s no “weird girl takes off her glasses and is suddenly a beauty queen”.  There is no “hunk singing a love song in front of the school to rewin the heart of said nerd-girl”.  No, the parent’s arent’ bumbling buffoons who “just don’t get kids these days”.  Yes, there’s a step-mother and <gasp!> no she’s not evil.  No this is simply a film about a girl (and to a lesser extent her boyfriend) who made a mistake and got caught up in an unexpected pregnancy.  It’s funny, it’s smart, it’s witty and it’s warm.  All together a very ”authentic” love story.  All that which is so despirately missing from today’s cinema.   It’s the kind of movie I will watch again and again.  And yes, it made me cry. 

So “Other Kim” set the theme for this week (Look! I’m caught up!) and the theme is:

What is your favorite home-cooked meal and why?  (Also share the recipe)

As you might be able to tell by my considerable girth.  I LOVE FOOD and I LOVE to cook.  Especially on the BBQ (makes me feel all manly)  I’ve got plenty of recipes for quick dinners or full-blown BBQ parties.  Today I’ll share one that’s certainly my favorite (why?  cuz it’s tasty! yo!)

BBQ Teriyaki Turkey Breast w/ Pineapple and Rice  (you can do it with chicken breast too, but it’s not as good)

1. Get to second base w/ a turkey.  Steal breasts while they are otherwise distracted.
2. Put Breasts (the Turkey’s; not yours) in large ziplock bag.
3. Pour in 1 can of Ginger Ale. (Canada Dry eh?)
4. Pour in a couple tablespoons soy-sauce.  (Kikomans FTW!)
5. Pour in a cup or so of Teriyaki Sauce or Marinade.
6. Zip up ziplock, but leave about 1/2 inch unzipped so the carbonation doesn’t explode teriyaki goodness all over your fridge.
7. Toss in the fridge.  Occupy yourself with other pursuits for 24 hours.
8. Fire-up the Grill - make sure it’s clean. Also, try checking out the new BBQ “PAM” spray, it’s awesome!
9. Turn heat down to low - the beasts are thicker than chicken so they’ll need to cook slower. 
10. Throw the beasts on the grill (again, the turkeys, not your own) flip frequently. 30-45 minutes on the grill should do it.. but make sure they are really done before you go eating them.
11. About 10 minutes before they are done, take some pineapple slices and throw them on the grill.  Don’t let them burn, but you should only have to flip them once (if at all)
12. Also, depending on your preferred style of rice, start cooking that too.
13. Take everything off the grill.  Serve pineapple on top of breasts and breasts on top of rice.
14. Sprinkle sesame seeds over the top to taste.

It’s delicious and filled with puns to entertain your friends and family.

So I got to set this (read: last) week’s theme.  It was:

“In the story of your life who plays the hero, the villain and your trusty sidekick.”

So I’ve been dreading answering this question (yeah I know I asked it, but I don’t plan ahead) because I know I’ll likely piss someone off.  Probably someone I love to boot.  I could take the easy way out, call myself my own villain, call my wife my hero and my kids my trusty sidekicks.  Unfortunately, I can’t say that because it’s not the truth. 

The Villain:  I think in some of the greatest villains of all time are those you can connect with, understand and even love.  This is true for my greatest villain.  It is my relationship w/ my Dad.  I feel terrible saying this as I’m sure it will come back to haunt me.  But my Dad and I have had a terrible relationship for as long as I can remember.  We don’t get each other.  We typically get on each other’s nerves instantly.  We’ve both seriously injured the other in deeply emotional ways.  I find the demons from this relationship still haunt me in my day-to-day life, my thoughts and how I respond to situations.  Am I saying my Dad is a terrible person?  Absolutely not.   What I am saying is the poor relationship I’ve had with him since.. well forever.. has been destructive to both he and I.

My Hero:  For me a Hero is something who does the extraordinary despite the odds.  They are fearless and have huge hearts for those around them and constantly seek to help others.  While it’s somewhat of an odd placement, but to me, my hero is my daughter Ashley.  Ash in particular is just an amazing individual.  She’s constantly helping other kids, braving new situations, and continues to amaze me on a daily basis.  Not to mention that she’s constantly helping with Geo and keeping him out of trouble (for the most part).  So yes, Ash is my hero!  I’d like to grow up to be like her someday!

My Trusty Sidekick:  While I might take some heat for this, I have to say my trusty sidekick is my lovely wife Amber.  Why not my hero?  Well… Heroes can fail you, your trusty sidekick is ALWAYS by your side no matter the situation.  No matter what crazy idea I have, Amber is there w/ me.  No matter how depressed I get, Amber is always there to cheer me up.  At the end of the day, I couldn’t be successful without her.  And like Batman and Robin, we get to have a lot of sex with each other too.

Pathetic I know.. but I need some sympathy. I’m having one of those days where I can’t help but step on land-mines. Can’t do anything right and am ready to tell the whole world where to go. ARRRGGGHHH!

I think my horoscope for today should be something like:

Taurus: Oh shit!  Duck!  Now run!

A few weeks back Monica set the theme for PSS. 

“Your house, containing everything you own, catches fire; after saving your loved ones, you have time to safely make a final dash to save any ONE item. What would it be?”

I’ve been lazy in leaving it unanswered.  This is partly because I’ve been busy, but mostly because I really did not have a good answer to this question.  I’ve been looking around my house and thinking about what I’d try to save if, as the theme suggest 1) all my loved ones are safe and 2) I run no risk by returning to grab this one item.  In truth I would not return to my house for anything.  I wouldn’t risk leaving my wife without a husbane or my kids without a father.  Nothing is worth putting that burden on them.  However, It think the question is designed to get at the physical item I treasure the most and would have the most difficulty replacing.  Our photos are all backed-up online so they can burn.  Our music is all online as well.. those can fry with little concern for loss.  Our documents, I guess should be in a fireproof safe, but again there is nothing irreplacable there.  I guess we are better prepared for a fire than I expected.

So I upgraded my wordpress from 2.3 to 2.5… and all hell broke loose.  Which is why my site has been down for a little while and why some comments have got missing in action.  Additionally, it looks like previously safe-listed commentors will have to be re-safe-listed.  Sorry for the trouble, but please do not stop commenting.  Everything should be stable again, but I wanted everyone to know (especially those with missing comments) what happened. :)    Now to get caught up on PSS.

If Dan blogged…

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